Wednesday, April 13, 2005

I have sort of a dental problem right now. I have a rotted tooth that's bothering more by the day, and whats worse, there's a sore on my toungue. I pretty much can't eat anything without being in total pain. My toungue is worse than the tooth. The tooth is more just an annoyance, for some reason like half of the fucker is gone but it doesn't hurt to touch it or anything. I brush my teeth 3 times a day, I don't understand it really. Bad teeth are a part of life I guess.

My summer dream is creeping up. Getting warmer by the day. Days are lasting longer as well. My daytimes and nighttimes are syncronizing better. I say "summer dream" because I remember my summers like I remember my dreams. They seam surreal. Winter definatly feels real. Winter is too cold and annoying for it not to feel real. It's like trying to watch your favorite movie with the phone ringing constantly and a 4 year old crawling on your face. I don't understand my own metaphores sometimes. Two of my sunflowers have sprouted little leaves. Ashley said she saw 3, but I think maybe one of the ones I thought sprouted earlier was just a weed or something, but these new things are deffinatly the real deal.

I like this house, it's kind of isolated. I don't feel as much like I'm stuck in the cookie-cutter eggcartons of suburbia. I've got a little more space, I can think easier. I almost feel relaxed here.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Why do things have to be so bloody complicated? How did things get like this? I liked the old days when man was being chased by lions and stuff. At least then your goals were will simple and well understood; stay alive. These days you've got no choice about staying alive or not. You can't just lay down on your couch and wait for a lion to come and eat you. And being a sane person, suicide isn't an option, nor a want. So here I am, modern man, stuck here, having to figure out what to do for the next 70 years. How did it get like this. How did we get cars and burritos and wal-mart stores. How did we get to worry so much about our teeth and our facial hair. I love Ashley, and we've been talking about marrige; That's my current long-term goal. She wants me to have goals based on jobs. I hate jobs, I hate working, I hate having to try to prove my worth by making money. I'll do it to support myself, but the fuck if I ever want to take a job seriously. If I could get paid for my interests that would be great, but not very many people are really getting rich off of making drum&bass music these days. Which, by the way has been on hold lately because I'm in residential limbo. I'm not really living at my old house, and I'm not really living in Ashley's house untill I can get things straightened out with her parents. All my stuff right now is scattered between these two places. Days like today I just want to sleep and forget it all.

Friday, April 01, 2005

See, No More Goddamn Snow.

Audry, We Just Don't Know

Havn't had a chance to write lately, the blogger site has been slow as hell. It would appear that the site is back to normal, but who knows for how long.

Danny Howells' "Global Underground # 27: Miami" double mix set is flippin sweet. I also got Hernan Cataneo's "Renesaince: Vol.2" double mix set, which is also very good if you're into minimal progressive stuff. I've been leaning away from making drum&bass lately, been doing more housey-techno-ie stuff. Though I havn't had time to work on it, I've been at Ashley's most of the time. Still in the process of moving stuff over here. We're not gonna do the computer and stuff for another few weeks; I think Callie said she was gonna help me on the 11th. Going to be an adjustment. I'm pretty well adjusted already, but still, It'll be different living with someone all the time. Better put, it'll be different living with someone and a 3 year old all the time. I act like I'm 3 most of the time so it shouldn't be a problem.

Next week's 24 is said to be a jaw-dropper, but I already think I know what's going to happen. That's why you shouldn't read message boards about shows you like or movies you want to see. It's tempting cause you like reading useless nonsense about the show, but now it's gonna be as much of a shocker to me...I don't think. Could be the person on the message board was completely wrong about whats going to happen. It's been know to happen before. One of the producers said sometimes they post fake spoilers up just to throw people off. In any event, this is one of the only times they're going to repeat the show. They said that it's such an important show that they're going to show it 3 times this week. I've already downloaded last weeks show and watched it 3 times. I think may favorite of this season is episodes 12 and 13 so far. 14 was good too, 15 (this week's) moved kinda slow, but I guess just cause they're setting up for the big one next week. Dude highjacked a stealth bomber and he's heading for a "target" that has a very small window of opportunity. If the spoiler was right, I know what he's going for, and if you're reading this and don't know yet, trust me, don't ruin for yourself, wait untill monday. This season got of to a rocky start, but since episode 11 it's been moving along nicely. Can't wait till December when the season 4 box set comes out. It's cool waiting a week for each episode, but it's also fun eating junk food and watching 6 episodes in a row. If you're not watching this series, or at least if you havn't seen it, you sir, are a fool.

The weather has at last warmed up. We've had like 4 nice days in a row now. I'm slightly less lathargic this week. I actually got outside and planet sunflower seeds. I also had to pretend that earthworms didn't grose me out cause Samantha wanted me to dig some up for her. I think Ashley is planting some stuff too. She said something about a rose bush; I think that might be from last year. She wants Pine Trees in the yard. I'm not sure how I feel about pine trees. They're so tall and strange looking. I always think they have eyes and they're looking at me. And they smell; for most people that's a good thing, but I find the odor to be intrusive to my nostrils. How can I sit outside and relax when I've got shit that reminds of car air freshiners all up in my nose. Oh well.

Also on the moving front, I found a fabulous desk that I want. Normally I could give a poo about furnature, but I kinda want to make a fresh start with everything. I was thinking about putting some of my old posters up in the basement, but now I'm think I don't want to do that. I need new, I need fresh. I don't want my spaces in the house just to be bad reflections of my old house.