Monday, December 05, 2022

 I don't know what it is lately but I've been feeling like I don't "deserve" to do anything that I like. I feel like I don't deserve to work on comics or do sim racing or go see a movie I might like.... I don't even really know where that guilt is coming from.

Wednesday, October 12, 2022

In grade school when talking about things like weather, the climate, or just other big scientific concepts, kids would shout out ideas like "Why don't they just build giant electric fans to blow the hurricanes and tornadoes away from cities and people". An 8 year can be forgiven for not understanding why something like that isn't feasible , and yet I know adults who still think like this. Perhaps not about the fans specifically (though it wouldn't shock me), but this notion that whatever (not even) half-baked idea pops into your head is a good one and are baffled as to why none of the experts in the field have thought of this yet.

Not exactly the same thing but I'm reminded of a time years ago when ipods first came out, I got one and a co-worker scoffed, saying "that's just a hard drive with a screen on it, I could make that at home". In the years that I worked with him he never did build his own ipod. Go figure.

Monday, April 25, 2022

 We're mostly in the "endemic" phase now. Just shy of a million people dead. Give yourself a nice big pat on the back, America.

Saturday, April 10, 2021

 561,000 dead by the way.

 I wanted to make a more conscious effort to get my thoughts in writing again. I’m not sure what I’m thinking about right now to be honest. When I had this thought it was 3am and I was very tired. My mind went to the cosmos... to the quantum. All the theoretical physics videos I’ve been watching lately have given me the drunken impression that I understand all of it. My mind went to places of a societal/social nature. Of course now I can’t remember exactly what it was because I was tired and high as kite. Something about how sometimes we don’t recognized things until we give them a name, then they’re clear as day. Giving it a name also rigidly defines that thing though... and whatever the circumstance, there are those that will try to cram everything into neatly labeled boxes when reality is much more messy. ( from the notion that ancient people’s didn’t see the color blue because they didn’t have a name for it. The truth is they saw the color blue, it just didn’t stand out as all that unique to them from just being a Shade of black. )

This last year was crazy, of course... but I think I was in shock for a lot of it. Seems like a dream now. I’m just now starting to process a lot of the fucked up nature of it.

Monday, January 11, 2021

 Welcome to the Dumb Revolution

 


 


 



Wednesday, December 23, 2020

 325,000 dead.

 

That's all for today.

Wednesday, October 07, 2020

I find it funny when liqour is referred to as "the hooch".

Monday, July 13, 2020

Pumpkin Diary Entry 4

One of the most frustrating parts of this whole mess we find ourselves in is that for the first time in history we had the infrastructure and technology to ride out a pandemic with relative ease and with minimal death. I'm not saying losing your job is "easy", if that's something that happened to you, but in terms of meeting basic needs and maintaining some semblance of our normal lifestyles? We had it made in ways that maybe even 10 or 15 years ago weren't possible. Smart phones to quickly order groceries and take out from companies like instacart, grubhub, etc. Zoom/similar apps to work from home for office workers and for people to able to see the people they've had to stay distant from. You don't need to go to a video store or even redbox to rent a movie any more. Amazon, no matter how you feel about the company or how much they've taken over retail, they exist and have made it insanely easy to get things sent to you quickly and cheaply when all of those retail stores had to close. People in more rural areas that maybe don't have fast internet or access to some of these services wouldn't be affected by the infection spread like people in cities anyway. It's like 2020 was the year MADE for a pandemic. We should have just laughed it off, beat this thing within a couple of months, and been like "That's all you got 2020?!". It should have been the most convenient pandemic in human history. We HAD EVERYTHING WE NEEDED yet still a bunch of you fools couldn't handle that. Now 130,000+ people are dead (so far), and we're dragging this thing out into the fall while having national discussions about what an acceptable death-rate for infected school children might be.

Monday, May 25, 2020

Pumpkin Diary Entry 3

All that Constitutional sanctity and American exceptionalism horseshit that was rammed down our throats growing up is really coming back to bite us on the ass.


People know we have a constitution, and they know that it's important, they just don't know specifically what's actually in it, the limits of what's in it, and how the things that are in it can be amended. They also don't seem to realize that a constitution isn't some magical thing unique to the USA.


Thinking that America is the greatest, most infallible nation on earth has just led to regressive thinking and has made it impossible for anything to actually change or get better. A theme that was always hammered home to me was "America might not be perfect, but we're still the best and American style capitalism is still the best for everyone"... Any suggestion that our policies or attitudes should be different and/or more in-line with how the rest of the world does things (when those things are proven to work) is met with belligerent hostility and ignorance. They don't even have a frame of reference to what they're arguing against.