You think this was political somehow? No, he was waiting for an excuse to finally live out his fantasy of getting to operate the beep-boop hissy fire machines on the other side of counter. I bet he fell out of his chair and almost choked on a McNug in excitement when Harris mentioned working at McDonald's.

As someone who worked in kitchens for 10 years, I can tell you it's overrated. He should be thankful that the workers and the secret service and whoever didn't let him get in too deep and end up with 3rd degree grease burns and 1 or 2 fewer digits...or screw up any *real* orders for actual customers.

 I don't know what it is lately but I've been feeling like I don't "deserve" to do anything that I like. I feel like I don't deserve to work on comics or do sim racing or go see a movie I might like.... I don't even really know where that guilt is coming from.

In grade school when talking about things like weather, the climate, or just other big scientific concepts, kids would shout out ideas like "Why don't they just build giant electric fans to blow the hurricanes and tornadoes away from cities and people". An 8 year can be forgiven for not understanding why something like that isn't feasible , and yet I know adults who still think like this. Perhaps not about the fans specifically (though it wouldn't shock me), but this notion that whatever (not even) half-baked idea pops into your head is a good one and are baffled as to why none of the experts in the field have thought of this yet.

Not exactly the same thing but I'm reminded of a time years ago when ipods first came out, I got one and a co-worker scoffed, saying "that's just a hard drive with a screen on it, I could make that at home". In the years that I worked with him he never did build his own ipod. Go figure.

 We're mostly in the "endemic" phase now. Just shy of a million people dead. Give yourself a nice big pat on the back, America.

 561,000 dead by the way.

 I wanted to make a more conscious effort to get my thoughts in writing again. I’m not sure what I’m thinking about right now to be honest. When I had this thought it was 3am and I was very tired. My mind went to the cosmos... to the quantum. All the theoretical physics videos I’ve been watching lately have given me the drunken impression that I understand all of it. My mind went to places of a societal/social nature. Of course now I can’t remember exactly what it was because I was tired and high as kite. Something about how sometimes we don’t recognized things until we give them a name, then they’re clear as day. Giving it a name also rigidly defines that thing though... and whatever the circumstance, there are those that will try to cram everything into neatly labeled boxes when reality is much more messy. ( from the notion that ancient people’s didn’t see the color blue because they didn’t have a name for it. The truth is they saw the color blue, it just didn’t stand out as all that unique to them from just being a Shade of black. )

This last year was crazy, of course... but I think I was in shock for a lot of it. Seems like a dream now. I’m just now starting to process a lot of the fucked up nature of it.

 Welcome to the Dumb Revolution

 

 

 

 

 325,000 dead.

 

That's all for today.

I find it funny when liqour is referred to as "the hooch".

Pumpkin Diary Entry 4

One of the most frustrating parts of this whole mess we find ourselves in is that for the first time in history we had the infrastructure and technology to ride out a pandemic with relative ease and with minimal death. I'm not saying losing your job is "easy", if that's something that happened to you, but in terms of meeting basic needs and maintaining some semblance of our normal lifestyles? We had it made in ways that maybe even 10 or 15 years ago weren't possible. Smart phones to quickly order groceries and take out from companies like instacart, grubhub, etc. Zoom/similar apps to work from home for office workers and for people to able to see the people they've had to stay distant from. You don't need to go to a video store or even redbox to rent a movie any more. Amazon, no matter how you feel about the company or how much they've taken over retail, they exist and have made it insanely easy to get things sent to you quickly and cheaply when all of those retail stores had to close. People in more rural areas that maybe don't have fast internet or access to some of these services wouldn't be affected by the infection spread like people in cities anyway. It's like 2020 was the year MADE for a pandemic. We should have just laughed it off, beat this thing within a couple of months, and been like "That's all you got 2020?!". It should have been the most convenient pandemic in human history. We HAD EVERYTHING WE NEEDED yet still a bunch of you fools couldn't handle that. Now 130,000+ people are dead (so far), and we're dragging this thing out into the fall while having national discussions about what an acceptable death-rate for infected school children might be.