I don't know what it is lately but I've been feeling like I don't "deserve" to do anything that I like. I feel like I don't deserve to work on comics or do sim racing or go see a movie I might like.... I don't even really know where that guilt is coming from.
Monday, December 05, 2022
Wednesday, October 12, 2022
In grade school when talking about things like weather, the climate, or just other big scientific concepts, kids would shout out ideas like "Why don't they just build giant electric fans to blow the hurricanes and tornadoes away from cities and people". An 8 year can be forgiven for not understanding why something like that isn't feasible , and yet I know adults who still think like this. Perhaps not about the fans specifically (though it wouldn't shock me), but this notion that whatever (not even) half-baked idea pops into your head is a good one and are baffled as to why none of the experts in the field have thought of this yet.
Monday, April 25, 2022
Saturday, April 10, 2021
I wanted to make a more conscious effort to get my thoughts in writing again. I’m not sure what I’m thinking about right now to be honest. When I had this thought it was 3am and I was very tired. My mind went to the cosmos... to the quantum. All the theoretical physics videos I’ve been watching lately have given me the drunken impression that I understand all of it. My mind went to places of a societal/social nature. Of course now I can’t remember exactly what it was because I was tired and high as kite. Something about how sometimes we don’t recognized things until we give them a name, then they’re clear as day. Giving it a name also rigidly defines that thing though... and whatever the circumstance, there are those that will try to cram everything into neatly labeled boxes when reality is much more messy. ( from the notion that ancient people’s didn’t see the color blue because they didn’t have a name for it. The truth is they saw the color blue, it just didn’t stand out as all that unique to them from just being a Shade of black. )
This last year was crazy, of course... but I think I was in shock for a lot of it. Seems like a dream now. I’m just now starting to process a lot of the fucked up nature of it.
Monday, January 11, 2021
Monday, July 13, 2020
Pumpkin Diary Entry 4
Monday, May 25, 2020
Pumpkin Diary Entry 3
All that Constitutional sanctity and American exceptionalism horseshit that was rammed down our throats growing up is really coming back to bite us on the ass.
People know we have a constitution, and they know that it's important, they just don't know specifically what's actually in it, the limits of what's in it, and how the things that are in it can be amended. They also don't seem to realize that a constitution isn't some magical thing unique to the USA.
Thinking that America is the greatest, most infallible nation on earth has just led to regressive thinking and has made it impossible for anything to actually change or get better. A theme that was always hammered home to me was "America might not be perfect, but we're still the best and American style capitalism is still the best for everyone"... Any suggestion that our policies or attitudes should be different and/or more in-line with how the rest of the world does things (when those things are proven to work) is met with belligerent hostility and ignorance. They don't even have a frame of reference to what they're arguing against.